Every moment I see Him, there's this warm tingle, and I've had my hopes up... but...

But. I'm looking at what happens other than the moments we happen to see each other, some party we both go to, or a picknick, or whatever. I've expressed a desire to meet privately, and then I'm noticing that neither of us is making an initiative to make that happen.

I have to admit to myself that I've taken on a passive role with Him. A classic woman's role... or as someone expressed it a few moments ago, "your submissive side, your cute side, the side of you that's willing to be courted, ..."... and I have no regrets taking on that role to a large extent, but, if he doesn't make an initiative either, I have to admit that my desire will remain that, a desire.

So I'm giving this up for the moment. Maybe there will be another opportunity, some other day... but not now. He will remain a Prince Charming in my dreams...