There are times when I wonder if someone else is holding an unspoken wish, a desire that just won't come out... unless I do some pulling, or maybe suggest that same desire myself (which fixes the problem for the other person).

Is it just my imagination? Maybe it is... and yet, there are times when it seems to be just hanging there, just out of reach... and keeps me wondering if I should have spoken, if I should have come with an initiative, if I should have been the leader.

I don't mind taking the initiative (not that I'm very good at it, but still), but there are also times when I want to see the other person's initiative, when I want to know what desires are there, on their own, without my suggesting, directing, pulling...

Or... well, maybe this is about specific things where the initiative has been very much on me... and it has me wonder if I retribute, if there are other things for which I simply don't express what's in my heart... I can't really see anything at this moment, but maybe that's something I need to watch for.

But still, there are some specific things for which I don't want to be the sole initiator. It's tiresome and sometimes leaves me wondering if it's just me wanting...

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