How do you reach out to someone who's closed the door?
How do you get the words and the emotions to reach her ear?
How do you keep on going when you're about to give up?
How do you keep on talking when the words feel old and worn?

I'm losing a battle. With myself or with her, I don't know.
(most probably both)
I'm losing a battle, for I've lost the force and the will.
I'm losing a battle, for I lack the courage to keep on.
I'm losing a battle, and a child suffers the consequences.

Help...

[ this is written as I re-read a conversation I had with a friend over issues with my ex and emotions that follow ]