I feel very fragile today, and the world around me seems to reflect that in various ways. The train system has an error, I'm damn late for work, and all I could think was that I wanted to run back home and crawl back to bed, into the arms of my love.
I feel lost, disconnected on this train with just strangers who
will of course not speak to me (reality: I'm not speaking to them),
disconnected from everyone and everything I love.
I feel clingy and desperate and want to surround myself with people
who can catch me, comfort me, hold me until I'm whole again,
because I feel like I'm falling.
I feel a strong need to reconnect.