Today has been a tough day, but not so tough. I watched my ex-wife and my son go on the airplane (OK, I only got to see them walk through security...) to move to the other side of the planet (to Boston). This is a move we have all agreed on after a couple of months of processing, discussions, hard emotions and disagreements. It's also my own choice to stay behind when I had the option to move there as well. I seem to have prepared myself quite well for this separation, because I can imagine myself being a lot sadder.

The bottom line is that this move is the best for all involved. Our son will get some resources in the states that he doesn't have access to here in Sweden, and Lisa and I will both be in a place where each of us feels at an optimum when it comes to happiness, comfort, development and so on, which in turn will benefit Jacob.

I will probably have pangs of anxiety in the days that come, and I can't really imagine how I will feel. I have the impression that I have had the majority of the anxiety attacks already. How many more can there be? I'll just have to take care of them when they get to me. Fortunately, I've friends to turn to when times are tough, and I am staying in touch with Jacob and Lisa as much as I feel I can (I've no idea what that means, but we will figure it out as we go, won't we?).

Anyhow, that's the news for now. I'm thinking of writing some tidbits about what I've learned and the paths I've chosen to follow in the year that has been. Will try to remember to do that in the next few weeks.